Untitled Final Draft

If only I was able to find the words somehow
To explain the many feelings inside of me right now
Positive mostly but negative ones too.
Its like I'm happily scared to fall in-love with you.
Heart is floating on cloud nine,
But my head's saying "Slow down! wait for a sign!".
I'm torn in half about what to do.
Do I dive head-first and leave it up to you?
Should I wait to think things through
Or should I give my heart to you?

Before I do, You should know; I'm really insecure,
I can be annoying at times and pretty immature.
I think too much, try too hard,
I'm awkward and a social retard.
I'm pretty messy and messed-up as well.
I have a one track mind, can be obsessive
and tend to dwell.
My heart has some cracks, a few holes and is a little bruised.
and I'll probably always be afraid of being refused.

Despite all my faults I hope you see the rest of me.
I wonder what our relationship could be.
Maybe we will have a long life together...
Growing old and cuddling in cold weather.
Enjoying the time we spend with eachother.
I guess What I'm trying to say is--
I hope one day you will call me your lover.