I'm a loser

I don't know where to begin or how this is going to end...
But everything is crumbling and I'm dieing within.
A nasty realization is ripping right through me.
A sudden revelation is now clear to see.

We have drifted and I know I'm the one to blame.
I haven't been there-- I feel the full force of shame.
I wonder if its too late to repair the wrong...
Is it too late to place things back where they belong?

My mind is clouded, My hands are shaking,
My voice is cracking, My heart is breaking.
My vision blurred, My tears are falling,
My faith is gone, The dark is calling.

I'm suspost to be the rock, To help you when you fall.
I'm suspost to have the anwsers, I don't have any at all.
I know I'm the loser that you never wanted to meet.
I'd take another step but there's no earth beneath my feet.

Is there anyone to anwser; Where do I go from here?
How am I to function, I have a missing gear...
I'm not sure, I think I'm lost, I don't know what to do.
What am I suspost to do to keep from losing you?